I can't help but realize that I don't belong here anymore. I live with them. I go to class, work out, fuck, and drink beer with them. But I'm not really with them. Not too long ago I was here and it wasn't all an act but now I can barley even put on the face anymore. I'm past the meanness, the whining, the emotional wastefulness. If i'm going to pretend to be something I'm going to pretend to be somthing better then what I am-something besides apathetic and mediocre. A person should always act up not down. This isn't for me anymore.